Friday, 24 June 2011


you know i kind of just transferred to a new school AGAIN...and i just can't stop thinking about what they've given me as a leaving gift... i know i am wrong to be paranoid about them at first but.... i realise it now that my boarding school friends was the best thing that ever been mine... and all the memories including the bad one (i don't think i have a good memories defeating bad memories somehow.... hhaha this is when a nothing girl talking... i just at last feeling home... but i can't deny i am sad to leave them when they cry for me in ss6 haha... my heaven at that time... :p for my lovely mates THERE'S NOTHING THAT COULD MAKE ME FORGET YOU...AND WHAT YOU KNOW ME AS MYSELF IS NEVER GONNA CHANGE IF IT DIDN'T REQUIRED SO.... thanks for everything best mates!!!!!!!!!

Friday, 3 June 2011

can we pretend everything?

can we pretend everything the way that we wanted? can we? lameo! that is just for a daydreamer like me! nah! if you want to join to be a daydreamer come inside my blog and dream it's free... being daydreamer actually helps us... a down person like me cheers up with a dream, even i know that it is so not going to happen but when you dream and feel it deeps you will find out you already build a big castle full of things you ever wanted! like me i keep dreaming being the-only-girl-vocallist in a band and i am in my castle but not reality that's why i hate to be back in reality everytime my name was called... how stupid was my dream but it suceed in making me smile right? then what about the "logic" reality? did they make us smile???? sometimes and it will turn out to be a simply shit... sorry i can't stop my fingers from writing logically this time.... i just wanna play music...that's all but i can't you see in the reality thing as simple as being a vocalist could be a hard thing!!!!!!!! that's why i think daydreamer should be me let me think i am a vocalist although it is sooooo not true........ i just wanna sing and let people admire me for my music...with my boyfriends as the guitarist drummer and bla bla bla.... ;lame? if you think so get your hell out of this post and bring your face away from the screen... for the one who thinks im right i think you were so right : ngeee...... bye hola! see you next post :p 

she- me

don't look at her
don't think you are under
you guys a different one
don't dream to be the one
she might be first
you know one thing you cannot tease
let her be happy
and make you feel lonely
it's her fate to be lucky
but god not saying you have nobody
open your eyes and say what you want to be
and bring it to your daydream....

a hidden confession