hot and talented? WHICH DO YOU PREFER???

have you ever think that sometimes you don't want to live for a reasons???
i do... you know i just getting lame with all stuff i got to face sometimes i feel like this world is just not fair repeated NOT FAIR!!!!! because as you always see in daily life who got the most attention? celebrity right????? and sometimes they are just getting annoying when fate sides them... duh! you don't have to be so boasty! why can't a normal persons full of hidden talent can't be as hot and as wanted as them?why? because you never see them in the television? is it? or is it they didn't look as preety as the celebrity? huh! put your head in the loo if you think like this! for me a person with talented things are hotter than beautiful persons.... beautiful persons didn't work to get their preetiness they just got them from their parents while a not preety person could be more than that! well.... you guys just didn't give them the chances  when you give them evil eyes and the blah blah! and the worst thing paranoid feeling... so i hope in this post you just understand the main thing i wanna tell you here compare the best and the rest you'll know later....

awww....

you know i kind of just transferred to a new school AGAIN...and i just can't stop thinking about what they've given me as a leaving gift... i know i am wrong to be paranoid about them at first but.... i realise it now that my boarding school friends was the best thing that ever been mine... and all the memories including the bad one (i don't think i have a good memories defeating bad memories somehow.... hhaha this is when a nothing girl talking... i just at last feeling home... but i can't deny i am sad to leave them when they cry for me in ss6 haha... my heaven at that time... :p for my lovely mates THERE'S NOTHING THAT COULD MAKE ME FORGET YOU...AND WHAT YOU KNOW ME AS MYSELF IS NEVER GONNA CHANGE IF IT DIDN'T REQUIRED SO.... thanks for everything best mates!!!!!!!!!

can we pretend everything?

can we pretend everything the way that we wanted? can we? lameo! that is just for a daydreamer like me! nah! if you want to join to be a daydreamer come inside my blog and dream it's free... being daydreamer actually helps us... a down person like me cheers up with a dream, even i know that it is so not going to happen but when you dream and feel it deeps you will find out you already build a big castle full of things you ever wanted! like me i keep dreaming being the-only-girl-vocallist in a band and i am in my castle but not reality that's why i hate to be back in reality everytime my name was called... how stupid was my dream but it suceed in making me smile right? then what about the "logic" reality? did they make us smile???? sometimes and it will turn out to be a simply shit... sorry i can't stop my fingers from writing logically this time.... i just wanna play music...that's all but i can't you see in the reality thing as simple as being a vocalist could be a hard thing!!!!!!!! that's why i think daydreamer should be me let me think i am a vocalist although it is sooooo not true........ i just wanna sing and let people admire me for my music...with my boyfriends as the guitarist drummer and bla bla bla.... ;lame? if you think so get your hell out of this post and bring your face away from the screen... for the one who thinks im right i think you were so right : ngeee...... bye hola! see you next post :p 

she- me

don't look at her
don't think you are under
you guys a different one
don't dream to be the one
she might be first
you know one thing you cannot tease
let her be happy
and make you feel lonely
it's her fate to be lucky
but god not saying you have nobody
open your eyes and say what you want to be
and bring it to your daydream....

a hidden confession

the songs.....

PLEASE KNOW THAT EVERY SINGLE THING I PICK IN A SONG HAVE IT'S OWN MEANING IN MY LIFE AND THERE IS REASON WHY I PICK IT IT'S NOT ABOUT HOW POPULAR IT WAS..... I JUST LOVE SOMETHING THAT HAVE IT'S MEANING AND IT DOES REALLY LEAVE SOMETHING IN MY HEART <3

we have a common!

hey kate perry!
we have a common habit: to not love a person haha!
yeah hear her new song? i repeat it again and again! you know i've been in love in a robot haha.... god this was a not coincidence when kate perry loves alien nah! this is just a temporary love until we were fated with a normal human..... it was fun to be in love with something which does not exist....
yeah im weird!
sonny: your touch magnetizing (so don't touch me) hahaha! still love ya!...... im loyal :p need not to worry about my love to you ngeeee.....!!^^

don't read this if you are happy person

boarding school?
what do you think......
-it's dumb?
-empty?
-haunted?
-fun?
-scary?
-no way?
believe me i am feeling what you feel and honestly if im staying at that place for too long im going to lose myself somehow
i need nobody to tell me about it advantages and disadvantages now cause i already know right?
well at least i already have an experience didn't i and im proud about it
don't tell me "you proud?"
im going to answer "go to hell yo bitca!" easy huh?
im not telling you to be rude,,,, but im extremely telling you that:
every badness have it's kindness don't they?
they do.....
i've exprienced it myself...
-you will feel the family in you
-you are going to appreciated your friend until people call you lesbian (some people didn't understand :p)
-you are going to feel the love
-gossip like the main talk (not all people love to do that
-you will see so many type of people that you'll never regret
hahaha don't ask me what i feel
im okay with it.... it's just you know everybody prefer being in their own nest... so do me... and if i could i would choose for not staying in the boarding school for too long without my mummy infront of me never!
 THANKS FOR READING.....